It’s been a long while…
Yes, it’s been quite a long while since I last blogged. My last post was on 28 April, and it is exactly 2 months ago! =) Well, haven’t exactly been very busy or anything, but just didn’t sit down and blog about things that had happened.
The past 2 months had been pretty normal. Met with some pretty disappointing events but I don’t feel like talking about it anymore. Moreover, I don’t think many would understand unless they have been through it themselves. Oh well, I guess time would heal all wounds…
However, as I sit in front of my laptop and type, I recall a conversation that I had with a friend quite some time ago. Somehow we were talking about words and she mentioned that sometimes words can be the most hurtful thing. I totally agree. I must admit that I am a pretty sensitive person and I do take note of people’s tone and choice of words. Once hurt, these wounds stay for a long long time. I am not someone who would bear grudges, so I do forgive, but once hurt, I hardly forget.
I remember in that conversation, I was telling her that I thank God that I’m not exactly very smart. Not that I’m trying to be Ah-Q here, but I thank God that through my diligence, I have achieved what I aimed to achieve. And because I am not very smart and worked the hard way, I constantly remind myself to be humble because there is nothing to be proud of. I have seen some really arrogant people, or people who think the world of themselves and it really puts me off. Of course I know there would people who would say “Not smart still dare to say”. Oh well, I can’t please everyone.
In these past 2 months, God also showed me why He placed me in my job. I love my job, especially the interaction with the kids. I know there are people who do not think highly of my profession, but I’m happy where I am. I look forward to the daily interaction with these young souls. It is always pleasing to see their pure and innocent nature. I constantly remind myself that my words and action may have a great impact on their lives, so I must make sure that I will make that positive difference. 🙂
In a few weeks’ time, I would need to go back to the routine of having masters lesson every Wed. To be very honest, I am not looking forward to it at all. But the silver lining is that this module marks the start of my final year. Come next April, I would have completed my 3 years of “arduous journey”. Wish me luck! 🙂